According to my space calculator, this is the destination point - we have arrived. Celebrated by having a big party (that discipline was not mentioned at once) and writing this blog post.
Strangely, I do not feel much different from my old self. Possibly that's because I haven't actually changed. I've heard it said that you can put lipstick on a pig, but it's still a pig... I gather that's a metaphor as I can't understand why anyone would bother putting lipstick on a pig in order to establish that lipstick does not in fact change the species of the pig whatsoever. However, this lipstick-wearing pig has picked up a couple of non-pig-type habits that are hopefully going to stick around.
The dog is generally much better fed, but the plant does have a bit of a hang-dog "knew it was too good to last" expression. Teeth are good, face is great, bed is made as always. Still haven't written to the sponsor child, though. Heck, I haven't even managed to write a blog for the last week.
On reflection, I think the biggest thing I've learned about discipline is motivation. You can talk all you like, but unless the desire to act or change is coming from a deeply held belief, then it's going to be really hard to sustain. I can kid myself that I want to be more disciplined in certain areas, but really, if I'm struggling to even remember them, it's pretty hard to get tough enough to change them.
So - as of tomorrow, I'm going to stop putting lipstick on the pig, and let the chips fall as they may. And you know what? If it turns out that I'm still a pig after all, then that's okay. Thanks for digging in with me. Stay tuned for whatever the next weird thing I decide to do is, because I like the company. :)
M xx
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